5:40 p.m. ||July 02, 2004 Ok it's finally Friday nite. My hellish day is over. So I have this date...I have no idea what to expect. Do I like this guy am I lonely? Why is he meeting me at my apartment? It's like when someone sees where you live they see into your soul. I don't get this whole dating shit, I am getting to old for this. Why am I going out with this guy if I don't feel chemisty between us? Can you tell from a first date how you feel about someone? I like him, but I don't burn for him. I want to meet someone who consumes me, someone who I feel complete passion with. Someone who I can be reckless with. I want to feel alive and crazy in love. I want to feel what I felt with Steve. So we're going to the fair- at least I think so. The weather is unpredictable here. It was thundering so much last night I thought the world was coming to an end. Today it has poured off and on and now it is sunny and humid. I think the fair is a good choice for a date, there are many distractions there and if we don't know what to say we can walk and people watch. I think dinner is the worst date. You have to eat and talk. Some people's eating habits are rather gross too. I once dated a guy who ate like a truck driver and inhaled his food while he talked. Also you have to wait... wait to place the order, wait for the food, wait for the check and then what do you do, say ok that was fun see you later. Yes, the dinner date should not be the first or second date. well my prince is due to arrive soon and I must go... |