10:21 p.m. ||July 03, 2004 Today was a fun day. I had to go to a family party- well I didn't have to, but my dad is in town from out of state and he was going and I was invited. I had a really good time. It's weird how I'm not that close with my father's side of the family. I would like to be closer but sometimes I feel estranged. I think the reason I've always felt like this is because my parents divorced while I was very young. You see my father has 4 brothers and 3 of them and my father married their high school sweetheart's. My father was the first to get divorced which back then wasn't nearly as common. Not to mention I am the first grandchild and an only child. So back when I used to go to my grandparents to visit with my dad, I always felt sad because my mom wasn't there and everyone else had a family. Now 2 of the 3 are divorced. I feel I fit in more since I've gotten older. I kind of feel that my cousins look up to me and I really like them. I find them easy to get along with, maybe because they're boys. So I talked with my fav cousin at the party. It was very nice to see him and then I got to know my younger cousin's a little better. I also went kyiaking (don't laugh at my spelling, too lazy to get dictionary out) in the water. It was so cool. I was nervous at first because I figured I would tip over but I didn't. I didn't go swimming after but waded in the water a bit. The water was so warm it was like bath water. I like that so much better than the cold ocean. Right now I'm back at the apartment. I stopped at mom's after the party to see her and play with our new (we got him a rescue center) pomeranian. He is adorable and so good natured. Tomorrow I'm going back to mom's for a clam bake. I was kind of hoping my date guy would mention getting together but he didn't. well enough tonight, I'm not tired but should go to bed |