10:59 p.m. ||July 03, 2004 Ok I am going to jump on my soap box right now and probably piss some people off. I have been bored so I've been ramdomly reading journals. I think I read through about 5 to see if anything interested me and like 3 or 4 out of those 5 journals all belonged to girls who "cut". Is this some type of new Brittney Spears fad? Why would anyone do this, to get attention? It kind of seems like it to me. I must admit I once carved a K into my ankle because it was the initial of this boy I liked and I was trying to put ink in it like I had some type of tattoo. So yeah it was dumb and I got no pleasure out of hurting myself. I mean if you want cuts on you and you want pain- get a fucking tattoo and then everytime you look at it you can feel your pain. And don't think I'm an unsympathetic bitch, I know all too well what depression is. I've gone through suicidal times, I've been in a hospital before but now- I've changed. Yes, I still get depressed but no one and I mean no one is going to break me. I will not hurt myself no matter how much I hurt and you should feel the same way. Try to be a survivor and soon you'll find out that you are. |