3:41 p.m. ||July 06, 2004 I used to say that all I need in life is a snapple ice tea, cigarettes and good music... now I've added to the list all I need in life is diet vanilla coke, a beer when I'm not drinking the coke, cigaretts, good music, good sex and a good job. The last two are quite hard to attain right now. Did I meniton my job sucks and I haven't had sex since... it's too sad I can't tell you but it's almost been a year. Reasons why I hate my job.... *my boss once took a picture of my desk and emailed it to me because he said it was too messy (no he did not send it as a joke he was dead serious) *I work on call all the time *I never have time to take a lunch break *I'm not doing anything creative, in fact it's like torture Reasons why I stay at my job *My commute is awesome *I feel like I won't be able to find another job *I'm lazy, depressed and too tired to get off my ass and really look. *I'm afraid I won't get the same pay at another job, even though I should make more than what I'm paid now. What I would love to do as a job *Write for a magazine, newpaper etc... *Be an events planner for an organization *Work as a jeweler *Work on web design or graphic design *Teach art in school I wonder if anyone ever feels as stuck as this. I shouldn't feel stuck but I do. Sometimes at night I dream of hoping on a plane with just a suitcase and never looking back. I actually played out this fantasy in my head last night. I would go to Florida, stay in a hotel before I found a place to live and get a job in a trendy art gallery. I'd meet a sexy guy, fall in love and live happily ever after. Truthfully I don't give a shit about the guy part but the living away from here and a new job I can do. I feel the need to do something crazy and leave my current boring life behind. |