2:09 p.m. ||July 22, 2004 I am a slug. I've had the week off and I haven't don't shit. Of course my week off hasn't been a vacation week it's been a try to fix me week. Still I don't feel any happier than when I was working. I can't seem to get it right. I cut down on drinking for 2 days only to go out and buy beer last night. Last night was not a good night. I drank 3 beers got buzzed and was so depressed. I kept thinking about my asshole ex and how much I hate him. I feel like I've been betrayed and I'm angry. Everyone else is in a relationship except me. Why don't I deserve to be happy. Two of my friends frigging got pregnant from guys they weren't really with but the guys stayed with them and now they're oh so happy. It kills me |