4:47 p.m. ||September 19, 2004 My date went very well- maybe too well... I completely surprised myself and we had sex. I don�t know what I was thinking, but I don�t regret it, not at all. I just never do things like this, have only done something like that once but that was when I was 18. Anyway, it was pouring yesterday so we had a change of plans. We met in Boston and were going to go to the aquarium but that changed too. So we ended up having a drink at a bar then we went to see a movie near where he lives. We saw Without a Paddle, which is just hilarious. After we grabbed a bite to eat and we went back to his apartment. Now this was innocent, I did not plan on doing anything- maybe just kissing. About a half an hour into the movie we wind up holding hands and kissing and one thing led to another. I even told him I wasn�t going to sleep with him but fooling around just felt so wonderful that I caved. But it was incredible, I don�t think I�ve ever been with anyone so sensual and affectionate. After we just held each other the whole night. However I couldn�t really sleep, I just kept thinking oh my god this is crazy, what if he never calls me again or wants to see me. But I don�t think that will happen. This morning he made me breakfast, we watched some tv, cuddled and finally I had to get going. I just can�t stop smiling today, I have that post lovemaking glow about me. I don�t know if we�re doomed because we slept together so soon, but somehow I don�t think so. He seems to be in awe of me and me of him. We were just staring at each other smiling, he takes my had kisses it and puts it over his heart. |