5:23 p.m. ||June 01, 2005
Just Another Day
A co-worker of mine always replies when I ask him how he is that it's "just another day." He is saying this in the "same shit different day" kind of way. I think I have come to agree with how he feels. Everyday is pretty much like the last one- nothing new, just the same old stuff. Although it's not pleasurable maybe I am becoming accustomed to it. I'm not doing much, not trying, not reaching out. I am too afraid of failing. As for relationships- ha. Why should I subject myself for heartache again? Sometimes I miss Darren but I honestly don't dwell on it. I was happy that Jeff called me but I haven't called him back. I know I should but I make up excuses not to. As for work, I might apply for a job at Kristin's place. She told me they're hiring. I've thought about going back to school to get a certificate in graphic design. However I don't want to take all the other courses that apply because I've already taken them. All I would need would be like 3 classes in graphics. I have taken typography, adobe photoshop, illustrator, computer graphics etc etc.. But taking a class will eat up more of my money. I've also thought about getting my master's degree but that's more money and I would have to live back at home. I am probably moving out of here in September but don't know where I will go. All apartments for single bedroom are usually $900+ a month. No way in hell I can afford that on my salary. That's why I need to find another job. I'm just not sure what I'm qualified to do. I have no doubt I could handle almost any job as long as I was trained but will those people take the risk and hire me. I don't want to have an administrative job. It is so boring, but I feel that's all I'm qualified for. Well, that or another job in logistics. I am sick of anything related to trucking(my present job). Ho hum... time to shower and have more beer.
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