12:58 p.m. ||September 21, 2005
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I could not sleep last night at all. I get so damn ansy at night and just start panicking. I think of all the things I want to have and do with my life and how I don't know if I'll ever acheive anything. I get scared when I think of getting older and how I will never be able to go back and relive things. I'm not seeing my therapist anymore since I am out of insurance. I was going to do Cobra but it costs over $300 a month. How am I supposed to pay for that? My ex and I are sending these really lame emails back and forth. I don't know why I bothered to email him. I'm not hung up on him but I don't want to hear he's seeing someone where I am not. Is there anyone good out there for me? Who the hell would want to date me when they have to pick me up at my parents' house? Who the hell says that being single is fun?
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