1:01 p.m. ||July 25, 2004 Microwave pizza is disgusting, yeah and i just had some for my breakfast/lunch. There is nothing in this apartment to eat and that was the best selection. Going to mom's in a few minutes, too bored sitting here. Last night was depressing. I drank 3 beers and a wine cooler before bed. I need to stop the drinking, it is not making me happy. It's supposed to rain all week- how lovely. Mom is on vacation this week and since I am still out of work we were going to do some day trips. I am still scared to go back to work. IT seems like all the shit is hitting the fan now. I got a note from my complex about whether I will be extending my lease or not. How the hell can I decide that when I don't know how much money I will make at my next job? I don't want to move back home and I don't want to leave here. I remember how much of a pain it was moving in and now I have about double the amount I moved in with. |