10:06 p.m. ||July 26, 2004 Sometimes I get really crazy things in my head. All this weekend I have been trying to figure out what the hell to do with my life and still no dice. So I saw my therapist today and it was discussed that I am still not ready to go back to the job I left, and I am out on short term disability (do you know the acrynym is STD?) I'm too scared to go back to that reality and I don't want to go back to the bullshit corporate world. She then starting saying how what I have right now is a gift and I have so many doors open to me that I could do anything. She also mentioned school. I really would love to get my master's it has always been a goal. So further thinking led me to well, I know I can't go to school and still have my apartment and there is now way in hell I will go back home- so where can I live where it is really cheap and find a job easily- the answer Florida. I've always wanted to live there. I've been looking at apartments there online tonight and they're $200- $300 less than what I pay and if I got a roomate it would be even that much less. However this moving would be a big big step, I live in Mass for christsakes. My mother would be happier if I went to Colorado where my dad is. However I don't think it'd be that damn hard to find a $10 an hour job in Florida and have an apartment. I think it is doable. I'm not trying to run away but there is nothing here holding me- I have the chance to try something now that I may never be able to do again. |