10:35 p.m. ||July 31, 2004 The whole Colorado thing is looking good. I talked to dad today and he doesn't mind if I go out there and stay with him awhile. He said he would be happy to have me there but is concerned because it's a big step. I told him I figure I'll stay with them awhile get a part time job and see how it goes and then attempt to get an apartment there. Apartments in Colorado go for about $500 for a one bedroom. In MA they run about $800 and up for a one bedroom. Which is the reason I am not extending my lease and I know once I quit my damn job I won't be able to afford to live in another apartment and I don't want to go back and live with mom. My lease is up October 1st, my father's is up November 1st and they want to get a bigger place, so he's asked me to probably come after that. This means I need to find something part time around here. At least I don't have to worry about it right away. I still have to go back to work and then give my notice. I suppose I could work there until the end of Sept but that would be like torture. I am sick and tired of not having anyone to date. I don't think there are any guys out there. Ok yeah I have done the internet dating and now I am bored with it. It get lots of emails from guys but no picture. I was responding at first but now I feel like well what the hell do you look like. They can see me because I have my pic up there and I think it's only fair that they put one up too. This is not to say I am just into looks but let's face it I have to feel some attraction for someone. Also after that whole phone date I had, I am disgusted. The guys was such a loser, talking about how he's pleased every woman he's been with and he's the best lover, blah, blah, blah. I feel that he must be insecure and that's why he's bragging about it or else he has a small weenie. How the hell does one meet people these days? I met most of my boyfriends either at work or through friends. However I don't date co-workers anymore, too much of a pain in the ass. Also meeting someone at a bar- no good, been there done that. I suppose eventually I will break down and join one of those recreation hiking/biking/adventure groups. |