12:39 p.m. ||July 31, 2004 I had a great day yesterday. My mother booked a kyaking tour(spelling please) for me and my step father down on the Cape. I didn't want to go at first but I kind of forced myself to. It was wonderful. We were out in the bay for about 4 hours and we ended up paddling 6 miles. I must congratulate myself that I did not tip over, in fact I was at one with the boat. After my shoulders killed but that's ok I need more upper body strength. We went out for seafood that night and didn't get back home til around 8. You would think I would be tired but nope- I was up til 3am reading. I don't know what is up with the whole insomnia thing. Kristin tracked me down at my mother's yesterday and left a message for me to call her. I know it's probably about her sons first birthday. I will have to go to that even though it will be everyone and their kids. 3 out of the group not including Kristin are either pregnant or have just had a baby. I remember two summers ago when Kristin and I were hanging out everday and partying it up at night, she said to me one day "I wonder who will be the first to have a baby?" and then she says "With my luck it will probably be me". She was right and I never would have believed it or that she would have the child. I was against it, although I never told her that. But it worked out better than anything for her, she is still with the father of the baby and they live together and will probably be married soon. I was so jelous which I know is evil of me but at the time I was going through the breakup with Steve, but we were still together as "friends" (you all know what that means). I finally called and quits with Steve right before Kristin had the baby and the schmuck that I am, I never went to see her in the hospital and she was bullshit at me. We didn't talk until eight months later in April when she invited me to her friend's surprise baby shower. So you see if I don't go to this baby birthday party I am dogmeat. I have this feeling the ex will be there too with his new girlfriend. I will have to suck it up then. I'm thinking I'll call Kristin and see if she wants to hang out today. I haven't seen her in awhile and it'll be good to catch up. |