3:43 p.m. ||August 10, 2004 I�ve lost the ability to flirt. Yes it�s true I just don�t know how and blew a perfectly nice opportunilty. I just ran to �america�s favorite drugstore� to pick up my perscription amoung other things. Well, the phamarcy tech guy was really cute. Oh course I am so shy and act nonchalant and uninterested. I always feel like a dork when I�m in my work clothes too. I�ve got on a long red skirt with lilies, an off white top and my off white shoes. It may sound tacky but it looks nice, however I hate looking so damn corporate- thank god I wasn�t wearing a suit- which I do ocassionaly wear. So back to the guy- he was nice, tried to be funny and I just smiled and looked away. I just have no clue on how to initiate conversation. Once I know someone I never shut up, but at first- forget it. So I�m home from work- for the time being. I have to go back there in about an hour and a half. Why you ask? Because it�s the monthly meeting. I feel the same way about our monthly meeting as my monthly cramps. However tonight chinese food will be on the agenda. I wonder if we will be discussing my recent collapse from my position. I don�t care, everyone else in my life understands. The job was too demanding and took too much out of me. So what if I lost my raise and title- it was my choice. I don�t plan on doing this the rest of my life. Hopefully someday I can put my art degree to use. Right now I am going to sign up for the AMC and force my friend to do it to. If she doesn�t go I�ll still try to drag my ass there. I need some adventure in my life. |