8:25 p.m. ||September 01, 2004 I think I have a date Friday. Well I do if I don�t cancel. And why would I do that?- sometimes I do really weird things. I hate the phone for instance. Whenever I start communicating with someone new via email,, we talk exchange several emails and then the whole phone number thing comes up. For some reason after I get a number or give one out I won�t call or turn on my cell phone. I make excuses. I think it�s because deep down I�m afraid of being betrayed again so I don�t like to get involved. But yeah it�s just a phone call. Well, the reason I hate talking on the phone so much is because I do so much of it at work. I would rather meet someone in person and talk then. I don�t like awkward pauses or weird silences over the phone. I know that can happen in person too, but you could always look around and people watch or just smile at the person. So this is why I avoid the phone. Not to mention the disastrous phone conversation I once had. Anywho, this guy seems like a nice guy. He has a solid job, lives in Boston, is cute and has a sense of humor. Let's just hope he's nice too and doesn't hate smokers. Which brings up a question, why not date a smoker? I know plenty of people who's significant other smokes or vice versa and they don't seem to mind- however it seems that anyone who is single and looking to meet someone finds it tabboo if someone smokes. Well, because I am completely stubborn, I made the decision a long time ago that I will only quit smoking for two people- me and someone who hasn't even been born yet (my child). I just had an IM conversation with Kristin. She wasn�t mad that I left her son�s b-day party early. She asked me if I was going to Sandy�s baby shower and I said no and that I would be sending a gift. She said that Sandy didn�t have a jack and jill shower and shit head won�t be there. I told her since I thought he�d be there I made other plans. I am a horrible person. But seriously Sandy and I are not close friends. I was friends with Kristin and met Sandy through her. Also neither of them were there for me when I was so upset over shit head. Well, I�m not going to the shower. I think S and I are going to the Vineyard for the day. She wanted to bring our bikes but I suggested we rent them there. That way we won�t have to lug them around all day, we can bike and then walk around and sightsee and check out shops. I�ve only been to the Vineyard once before about 2 years ago. I liked it but didn�t get to do much other than ride the bike last time. I wold love to try parasailing. However, will not be doing any water skiing. I have never been able to get on my feet with the ski�s. Sunday I should be going to see Missy. She�s done with her summer job and getting ready to go back to grad school. I think I�ll look into grad school or at least taking some classes. It�s probably too late now though for this semester. I wouldn�t mind taking a jewelry class that isn�t a college credit. I just want to have access to a metals studio. I don�t dare try to set one up here. I can only imagine me with the torch lighting my apartment on fire. |