5:34 p.m. ||October 21, 2004 Well,I've been played a fool again. I should have known. The last time I talked to D, we'll now call him dickhead was Sat. We made plans for this weekend. I have not heard from him since. I was thinking maybe I was just worried for no reason but he still hasn't called and when I tried to call him- his phone's been disconnected. I mean this is ridiculous. If he doesn't want to see me anymore he could tell me at least or send a fucking email. I suppose I could send him an email asking him what's up but I get the hint. I guess it's obvious he doesn't care. I feel so hurt and angry. I've given up. There is no point in trying to meet anyone. I am sick of being dissapointed and screwed over. You would think there was a sign on my head that says fuck with my me. The thing I don't understand is what happened. I was not being clingy or asking for commitment or anything. He really seemed to like me. I really feel like a fool and an idiot. This is the whole point as to why I waited so long after Steve and now I've been screwed over again. |