4:42 p.m. ||February 24, 2005
Who knows, who cares, why bother- men really suck!
Am I a pushover? Am I too laid back? I don't know, I don't even know who I am half the time. I am too damn loyal though, that is the problem. His response to my email was- no, he's not ignorning me, he has had a horrible week. Well, gee- that just explains everything. Today he left an excstatic (spelling?) message on my cell that he passed the work test. So I decided to call him back. He could tell from my voice I was bullshit because we haven't seen each other. We didn't even get to resolve anything. He says we'll talk when we get back from out vacations. I just want to know now. I'm sick of waiting. I feel like I'm always waiting for answers. S is staying over tonight because I live close to work and it's supposed to be a fucking blizzard again. I am so sick of snow. I hate hate hate it. I don't think I have ever hated snow so much in my life. I'm sick of it being freezing cold all the time. I need to move to Florida. Today was my 2 year anniversary with my company. I suppose I am not minding my job so much right now. I could do it in my sleep, so it's an easy paycheck. Last year I got a paperweight for my anniversary. This year I didn't get shit. Well, that isn't true- I get to pick the food for dinner at our next monthly meeting. Whoever heard of having meetings after work is over? Also our meetings never start on time and they don't usually end until 7pm. I wonder if I'll ever have sex again. I don't want to wait another year like I waited the last time. It figures, as soon as I get on birth-control, my sex life becomes nonexistant.
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