5:57 p.m. ||March 03, 2005
Heading to the Tropics
It is hard to believe that in 48 hours I will be far, far away from this freezing cold and drinking a pina colada in the warm air. This vacation could not come at a better time. The snow this week was ridiculous. It snowed a foot one day and another 3 inches another day. Today I felt like I was in Alaska. The wind was blowing so hard I couldn't light my cigarette, let alone enjoy smoking it. I hate New England. I'm moving to Florida when this damn lease it up. I have had it. I packed everything on Sunday. Yes, I am a bit over eager. I am nervous though. I have traveled by myself a few times, but I've never taken a vacation alone. I worry that I won't meet anyone to talk to and hang out with. I wish Darren was going with me. We're back on good terms. He knows he royally pissed me off. Right now he's in California. He comes back Saturday and I leave Saturday. I'll be back Thursday night so I told him he better get his ass over to see me on the weekend. My friends think I'm crazy for continuing the relationship. I suppose I might think that too if I was looking in from the outside. Although he really seems clueless sometimes (like when we don't see each other for 2 weeks and he can't understand why I'm pissed.) I accept him for who he is. He's not perfect but I like the way he is. I like the way we are together and I never have as much fun with anyone as I do with him. I know I'm in love with him and sometimes I doubt things and other times I feel positive. It's weird but no one can ever really understand what it's like in a relationship unless they are in it themselves. So back to the vacation. I actually have a tan now. I didn't think it was possible. Also I have been working out for the past 3 weeks. I am really proud of myself. I haven't really noticed that I've lost weight but I think I have toned up. So I should look ok in my bathing suit. Which is not a bikin but a two piece that has the shorts and bikini bra top. I will try to use the gym on the boat because I know I will be eating and drinking like a feign. will write when I get back and post some pics
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