6:51 p.m. ||March 03, 2005
Teenage Years
When I feeling like surfing for new reads I check out the members area. I can't believe (well actually I can) how many teens have a diary. I have always had a diary (not an online one) so I wonder if I would have felt happier as a teen if I had an online diary and felt like someone understood what I was going through. The truth is I hated my being in my teens. I always felt out of place and I didn't want anyone to notice me. I was so damn shy and unsure of myself. I still have some of those traits but mostly I could give a shit what people think. But if I had to do it all over again- I would, if I had the knowledge of who I am now. I am finally comfortable with myself at 27. At 17 I thought I knew it all, at 27 I realize I'll never know it all and sometimes I still feel like a kid. People aren't id'ing me anymore for bews or butts. I look in the mirror and I feel like I look the same from when I graduated high school. Could my learned knowledge make me seem older? My highschool constantly sends me letters looking for donations. I went to a catholic school that cost $2500 a year and they still want more money. I hated that place. The girls were very snobby- not slutty like the the chicks at the public school but snobby. However my public school was worse. I remember when I was in 7th grade a girl who dispised me got all the tough 8th graders to throw rocks at me(isn't that nice). The worst that ever happened at my private school was some girls who pushed passed me and tried to shove me out of their way. Well I just pushed em on back. The funny thing is the bitch who threw the rocks at me in the 7th grade eventually came to the private school. She still hated me too. We got in a fist fight in the bathroom (I won). She later got tossed out on her ass for trying to throw a chair at a teacher. Anyway enough of this lovely trip down memory lane
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