5:54 p.m. ||June 21, 2005
I'm a lier and going to hell.
Yeah, so the friend called me again about the wedding today. Gee, short notice you think. As I said I didn't want to go. I decided to call her with a story. I might add the story is true, it just didn't happen today. I told her my dad was in town for a job interview and I was going to be seeing him. That is all true except it happened Sunday and he had his interview Monday. She told me where they were going for food (reception) after the wedding. The place is a ghetto Chinese place that I'm sure she's been to a million times. I mean geez she mine as well get hitched and celebrate by going to McDonald's for dinner. So I know I will burn in hell for not caring and being so apathetic about it but I don't care. I have come to the realization that I can only be there for myself. Selfish- yes but only I can depend on me. I used to be very, very loyal to friends- but when you get screwed over it makes you think. I'm debating whether or not to respond to the guy who sent me a post for my personal. I don't want to waste my time so I am so ambivilant about what I want to do. I think I'll wait another day and decide then.
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