8:19 p.m. ||October 30, 2005
He Loves Me
He told me he loves me. I was not expecting it. After all the last two times I told someone and thought they would say it back I was quite wrong. I am so happy, I am crazy about him, I like being with him. It doesn't seem to matter what we do. I like talking with him and don't find myself wishing he would shut up or instead we were just making out. I am falling for him. I told him I love him too. I know it may seem a bit soon. Should there be some kind of waiting period before the "I love you's" are said? Does saying something too soon not make it true? The funny thing is I don't really care about the "rules" this time. I am happy and I am trying not to question and analyze. So we spent the weekend together. Friday night we got some delicious take out Indian and watched a movie. This time I slept a lot better on his bed. He bought a feather top for the bed because the mattress is too firm. Saturday we went to the mall, barnes and noble and out to lunch. It was snowing out too. It's crazy that last night it was 32 degrees and snowing while today it was about 70 degress and sunny. Anyway that night we went to M&M's Halloween party. I dressed up like a dominatrix- I looked pretty damn good too. However I was freezing my ass off. The party was small- only about 10 of us but it was still fun. We actually played a stupid drinking game. Towards the end of the party this guy brought out some like tikki torches (not the cheesy one's in walmart for the patio- he made these things). So about 5 people go outside and they're lighting these things on fire. Everyone was dancing around with these things it was like some kind of pagan ritual- I thought it was kinda cool. I'm not complaining or bragging but I have had sex 5 times within the last 2 days. I feel very comfortable with him sexually too. It's not like we're just screwing, it is so intimate and special. We just look at each other and smile which is so much better than when some guys just seem to not make eye contact at all because they're so caught up in their own needs. So the weekend was terrific. I won't see him til Thurs but that's ok- I have to keep on plugging away at trying to find a job.
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