8:35 a.m. ||July 17, 2004 I went to the doctor's yesterday and told him everything that's been going on, the stress of my job, feeling miserable and drinking daily. He suggested rather than the hospital that I take a leave of abscense from work and focus on finding help during that time. So he wrote me a note saying I cannot work for two weeks and I am under his treatment. I sent the note to HR and they weren't very sympathetic they emailed me about a thousand sheets to fill out regarding short term disability. I can't even comprehend filling out the sheets right now. I feel so confused and empty. I don't know if I made the right decision or not. I feel guilty but I can't handle work right now. I need to try and help myself and stop my destructive behavior. I made an appointment to see a therapist on Monday. I havent' seen anyone in about 2 years and it's time to talk to someone. well, I have to pay some bills I've been putting off and then I'm going to my mother's for the rest of the weekend. I know seeing the dogs will cheer me up. |