4:38 p.m. ||August 10, 2005
Moving out and moving on
I have just done two drastic things in my life. I gave my notice on Tuesday at work and I told my apartment I would not renew my lease, so I will be moving out by the end of the month. I've lived here for 2 years but I am still very isolated. I have been at my job for 2.5 years and it's time to move on. I don't even have another job and I don't really care. This is all about me. I need to try new things I need to decide what I want. Everything that I've done was done because it's what I thought I should do. However the game plan hasn't moved the way I've wanted it to. According to my plan "the game of life" I should be married by now and thinking about having kids. So fuck it- I'm going back home. I must be insane to move back home. Everything (all my furniture) will have to go in storage. My mother re-decorated my own room when I left. I am so nervous about this change but it needs to be done. I have been contemplating leaving my job for over a year now. I plan on taking a break from work for a couple weeks and then start looking for jobs. I'm going to try temping and see if I like it. If not I'll try looking for graphic design positions and if that doesn't work out- I'll fall back on my baking skills and try to work for a bakery. If the job hunt seems completely hopeless I'll join the peace corps and travel ( I am not kidding).
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