7:09 p.m. ||November 20, 2005 It's for real- he dumped me. He told me that he doesn't feel the same for me anymore yada yada yada- it is all such bullshit. I don't believe he even knows what love is. He is one of those commitmentphobe's. I am better off without him- I keep telling myself that. It's not so much him that hurts it's going through this again. You would think heartbreak gets easier as you grow older but it seems to get harder. The older I get I don't seem to be any wiser and my choices in men don't seem any better. He seemed like a normal, stable guy but I guess everyone wears masks. At least I found out now rather than later. |